Freedom

Starting new is scary. Whether you’re starting a new job, moving to a new home, or beginning a new project, it’s scary. You never know what the outcome is going to be unless you try. 

I’m about to begin a new journey soon at a new job. A new job that has already opened so many creative opportunities to learn, grow and excel at something I enjoy. 

It’s been a rough year working with a company that didn’t value or respect their employees. It’s not the first, and last time this will happen to me or others, but for an early “professional” job, you would think that there would be something hopeful and exciting when you’re beginning your career as an adult. 

You begin to feel like you’re not capable of doing specific tasks or contributing to meetings because there is the potential to have ideas rejected. Being in a negative environment hurts a person mentally and affects their performance. 

Why did I stay? I stayed because I couldn’t afford to leave a job that was paying me so well, and I was discouraged by the lack of successful attempts when applying for a job. After many rejections, you begin to feel worthless again, and you’re kicked back to being the person you think you can only be. 

It took a lot of trying and believing to finally apply to different job postings. Until one day, I applied for a position that I wanted and surprisingly got an interview for. Unfortunately, that day I was in the beginnings of being sick. Still, I had to go to this interview, regardless if I was dying or not.

When I walked into the interview room, I saw that I was in a room filled with women, and for some reason, I felt empowered, and I knew right then that this is where I wanted to be. After the interview, I relaxed a bit and struck a conversation with the interviewers about my passions – something off the record from the interview – and at that moment, I was just myself.

I didn’t want to get my hopes up because it’s something that has happened before, so I went on with my day and tried not to think about what had happened that regular Thursday. I went into work the next day as if nothing had happened; I went out for lunch and came back ready to go home for the weekend, but not until I received a call – a call that not only myself but everyone I knew was waiting for. A break.

I was offered the position as a marketing coordinator at a national company that liked me enough to call me to offer me some great news before I began my weekend. While I was on the phone, I began to shake uncontrollably to the point where I think I almost began to cry. The news was so shocking that I barely remembered the conversation after they bid me a good weekend. It was the best day ever! After the phone call, I messaged almost everyone that was waiting for news like this – the news that I was finally leaving this toxic place. 

I couldn’t have asked for anything better. I thought I would never get out because I wasn’t good enough, but there was a team out there who knew that there was so much more. I can’t thank them enough and I’m very excited to see where this new journey leads me. Who knows at this point, I’m excited to finally be free.

One thought on “Freedom

  1. Gin I am so happy for you! I knew you could do it – I always loved having you as our summer student – (and Geleena too) You are smart, capable, intelligent, and funny. Good luck in your journey! Elaine

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